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I think im starting to hallucinate?? The other day i thought it was 10 pm, like fully believed it was 10- It was only 8. And just now, I was thinking that it was 7:10 in the morning, like i woke up a bit later than 7 thats fine. But when i went to get ready I was thinking 'Im taking quite a bit-" but then it JUST turned 7:10???

I'm going crazy help/hj 😨😨

Being lonely sucks. But I shouldn't feel this way because God is always there for me. I swear I don't doubt God one bit and I know He is the only one I can depend on. But sometimes I need real life support. But that's useless because they're temporary. But I don't know how to do this. I fuck up so much, make so many mistakes, and REPEAT them a gazillion times. And some sins, I've gone waaay past the guilt stage that its become a necessity in my life. I know exactly what I'm doing wrong and what I need to do to change. But I don't have the will. For some reason going to hell isn't that frightening. I mean I know its an unimaginable punishment but honestly I can't bring myself to care. I never wanted to exist or be a part of this. I know no one did. But its so hard... It's so hard to live ... So hell doesn't sound so bad because living sucks anyways. This whole game sucks. Why did He make it so hard to be what He wants. I mean I know its only hard because I made it this way for myself. So I don't know... I don't know what to do to be honest...

tuna fish can.

I have concluded that there is no way to make gradients look good.

The Boys but Hogwarts Mystery or something idk

I’m tempted to make additional HPHM character, but everything in story will be taken literally, seriously and in an extremely completionist way.

Let me explain why…

MC is a superhuman. Bio product. Artificially created by government with the help of Dai Ryusaki’s researches. Even Dumbledore is in cahoots with that.

MC is set to cultivate multiple skills - becomes an animagus, enhances their legilimency, does absolutely every chore and event planning around Hogwarts, befriends nearly entire school and solves their problems, becomes Prefect and later Head Girl/Boy, passes OWLs and NEWTs in all O’s, plays and wins the entirety of Quidditch, makes any creature bow and tremble before them, closes every Cursed Vault, becomes a master Duelist, does every investigation for Hogsmeade ever, singlehandly runs and supervises the Clubs, keeps Forbidden Forest in tact, gains obscure titles and achievements for breakfast, does half of the work for both Ministry and St. Mungo.

Not to mention that they also have to deal with at least 8 people having a crush on them.

And all that in a span of 7 Years. Under Dumbledore’s careful watch and guidance.

For best efficiency MC’s “parents” are ordered to distant themselves from MC as much as possible, so MC develops immunity to stress on their own, and Merlin forbid they develop any human feelings or emotions. That’s why MC’s mother is so absent in their life throughout school years.

But the father? Oh, the father.

Peregrine. Peregrine is in fact, is a previous failed experiment. We know from their dialogue with Dumbledore - Peregrine had a painfully similar to MC school life. But somewhere along those years, up to Wizarding War something went wrong. He gained his own consciousness and woke up from Ministry’s influence on him. He found out what he is, and set himself to go against Ministry.

Dai Ryusaki was not a dark wizard, but we found out he feared his own inventions and attempted to prevent others from using it as it was dangerous. Peregrine’s curse has nothing to do with that amulet he’s carrying around, or anything from the outside. Peregrine’s curse occurred inside him because of the experiment and it IS what went wrong.

Peregrine made an underground organization and wants to take Ministry down for what they did to him, and now he gradually can’t take a single sneeze without aggravating himself and setting Ryusaki’s Fury off.

But what about MC? Peregrine can’t tell MC about their true nature. He fears to set MC’s fury as well, and doesn’t wish that upon them. Instead, he attempts to give MC bits of what Ministry took from them - he rebels against Ministry’s ways and dumps at least some parental affections to them. Although he fails at it because there’s so little time left before MC graduates and Ministry will inevitably snatch them to work for them and use as a weapon, and Peregrine is between 5 fires himself. All he can do is rushed and sometimes outright dangerous to himself and others decisions, that are more often than not taken over by R Fury without him even realizing that.

He knows he’s cursed. But he doesn’t always know when it’s showing. And he can’t accept any help because of his big “main character” ego. Despite all that he still dare I say, loves his kids and wants to prevent them from, in his eyes - greater evil.

What about others in the story?

Rakepick is a government experiment that went rogue as well. But she developed a lot more murderous and sociopathic tendencies, and possibly without use of Ryusaki’s research. While Peregrine and MC are set to charm and gather people around, Rakepick is not. She was meant to be efficient worker, problem solver. Until she became a problem…

She was sent to take Peregrine down. She pretended to join R on her own terms, and was meant to dismantle it and their Leader. She would go to any extent, and because of her frivolity she would even take down MC to hit Peregrine where it hurts. But it happened so, that someone else took the blow for MC and we know how that ends…

Rakepick wanted MC down, because she thought MC will end up like Peregrine. She’s not concerned about Ministry’s interests, she thinks that she knows better. However, after everything that went down, during Azkaban events, she sees and realizes where she was wrong, and just simply states that MC “has a good heart, and shouldn’t loose it”.

That concludes her character and her arc.

Jacob was not raised to be Ministry’s secret weapon. He gained a lot of similar to MC talent on his own, but he has too much free will and acts rather emotionally than rationally. That’s why Ministry dismisses him, as they simply don’t see potential in him.

Jacob does a bit of a better job at giving MC family experience, right under Ministry’s nose. Although, it’s still not perfect obviously. And, Jacob acts on the matters on his own, and gets hurt a lot, making mistakes that are inherent if you’re a human being.

Despite turning most of attention to MC for reasons stated above, Peregrine cares about Jacob as well. He desperately wants to be a normal human being, a father at that. Jacob wants to have his family as well. It just happened so, that their family is in this big of a mess.

MC’s mom is a mindless Ministry drone, I will not elaborate, we will never see her.

Who and why joins R? Why are people of R are so against the government, that they are willing to work with Peregrine?

R members we seen were walked over by government in one way or another. They all seem to be typical denizens of Knockturn Alley, but they end up there not because they’re inherently evil. But because, if in this world you fail at following the system - you end up at the bottom. They have no choice, but to live like this, because the system doesn’t give them another chance. Or, they suddenly do have a choice, and it’s to join an organization. It’s not perfect, it doesn’t have your best interests in mind. But it promises to stick it to Ministry, right?

And now, when majority of your organization are these people, they will inevitably do something stupid. So, when you send someone like Shiratori to retrieve your kids, someone like Shiratori will do something stupid, like attack them, or have 0 diplomacy and talking skills.

That’s why R appears to be an evil Cabal. They may not have “bad” intentions, but they just don’t possess better skills and are full of spite and grudge.

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The final conclusion.

THEY ALL NEED THERAPY HAHAHAHAHAHA

Byeeee!

I have no idea what I was trying to do. Just something I was doing on my tablet (the everyday one, not the digital one) and I've got to say, drawing with my fingers is not the best. Anyways, have fun trying to figure out what this is. Even I don't know. My art.

Ok. Here's another one. Still don't know what it is, but it kinda looks like a face of a creature of some sorts. I don't know. I think I was actually trying to make a nice sunset with the mountains in the front, but I failed. Enjoy. My art.

Alphabet burger tag?

No no no. It’s a alphabet soup tag but i like burger more

Tagged by my only one uwus and i don have any idea about what i should write here ck.

Rules: Answer these in a new post and tag 10 people you would like to know better.........but i have nobody but her @ryncorrect​

A- Age: want to be forever 5 but my mom said 22

B- Birthplace: hospital ofc

C- Current time: Ng...15.30 GMT+7

D- Drink you had last: water? Or baby's blood? ngahahah

E- Easiest person to talk to: myself ehehehehe

F- Favorite song: EXO’s Universe and DAY6′s Letting Go are my ult. EXO’s Wait and Good Night also DAY6′s I’ll Try for my lullaby ugh actually i forgot the other song lol

G- Grossest memory: my life is full of gross memories ehe

H-Hogwarts house: I lived in Konoha

I- in love: with Jae? Sungjin? Depends on the situation:)

J- Jealous of people?: I’m an angel i don hate people don trust me i’m the best liar

K- Killed people: not.....yet

L-Love at first sight, or should i walk again?: better sleep

M- Middle name: darling lol someone kill me please

N- number of siblings: one lil sister and one lil bro

O- one wish: live blessed

P-Person you last called: one of my friend, wake her up

Q- question you are always asked: why i do this to me hohoho

R- reason to smile: you, guys ehey

S- song you last sang: CBX’s Playdate I’LL TAKE YOU ON A PLAYDATE U N I U N I U N I~~~~~

T- time you woke up: at 5 AM then sleep again 8 or 9 AM till 12

U- underwear color: don wear any HAHA not gonna tell u

V- vacation destination: prefer stay at home but Japan or travel around Indonesia is not bad

W-Worst habit: if fall a sleep 10 minutes after start to studying is a worst habit then it is lol

X- X-rays: i have no brain:)

Y- your favorite food: i like almost every food but prefer starve then eat food that contain Parkia speciosa. in Indonesia called Pete, or Petai

Z- Zodiac sign: Capricorn aye aye

tagging.......no one bcs i don kno anybodys here except my nuna when she should be called as eonnie hello anybodys here!

Faraji Wolfgang #afro #copic #character #hairstyle #hair #knight #swordman #knightpunk

"Hey, hey kid? You want this?"

I give you an empty candy wrapper

"There's way more when that came from."

You look down and see my pockets overflowing with empty candy wrappers, they start falling to the ground. Where do they come from? Where do they go?

so i saw this fernando edit with boulevard of broken dreams (which is one of my favourite songs everrrr) and it has been haunting my mind for days now

Your name says I don't even. So do you odd.

:”D Oh, you noticed that?

I wrote it there because even though I’m here on tumblr for a longer time, I still don’t know much of how it works xD

But it’s no problem anymore.

Garlic is a town in Italy. This is because garlic was actually imported by aliens into the town of Garlic, who used the garlic to make garlic bread. The aliens are also collectively known as the Garlic. My name is also Garlic by strange coincidence. There’s a ritual I often take where once a year I will go to Garlic from some garlic bread. I call this ritual Garlic.

So I, Garlic, garlic to Garlic to purchase Garlic-Garlic garlic bread, with extra garlic, as both the Garlic and the Garlic could use the extra funds to trade their Garlic-Garlic garlic bread..

TEXT: This was suppose to be a cute Madoka picture then my friend started talking about butts...

🐀~~Welcome Dear Children~~🐀

My old intro is kinda outdated to i re-did it :,) So hey, my name's Casper and I go by he/they pronouns >B)

I'm a writer that procrastinates a lot (which i am terribly sorry for- 😭)

You can click this link for my list of fandoms and all that and this one for my don'ts which I will be updating soon!!

Don't be afraid to dm or ask box me for updates on your stories because I already know I procrastinate a lot for some of them and it can get frustrating from time to time so if you get really impatient go on ahead and message me!

Honestly I think that's about it-

EDIT: I'll make a whole post about this later but I thought I should post it here too, I'm so sorry for that wretchedly long hiatus I've been on. I just lost all motivation to write fanfictions and took the time to try and figure myself out. I've come to the conclusion that I don't want to write fanfics anymore and I am sorry for anyone who left a request and didn't get it written. I'll keep my old works up but from now on all most of my posts will just be me spittin nonsense. Once again if you sent in a request I apologize if you sent in a request and didn't get it written.

Love you all!

-Caspa <3

I had heard about bots commenting on ao3 but didn’t actually look into it or ig really think it was true until I got one on a fic

Good egg

Not gonna lie - this is from last year and I still don't know what it means. I've thought about this pretty often over the past 10 months and I'm still confused. Like... am I the good egg? Is something I drew a good egg? The mystique is palpable.

An AU idea I've had for a long time since these have always been my favorite sets of brothers, staring Tensei as Mario and Tenya as Luigi. I want to do another drawing of how firebrand and thunderhand work in this AU so won't elaborate too much (YET)

Just in case you can't read it (because I chose to use my handwriting) I'm also putting what I wrote here

Tensei: - The older twin by about an hour and 5 minutes (get it 15 haha) They're both 26 year-olds from Brooklyn, but grew up in Italy to Italian-Japanese parents - Loves (LOVES) painting (Yes that is a shine sprite on his hip) - He prefers to fight with firebrand or powerups in close range. He's very good with fireballs and just doesn't have that kind of fear (And they may or may not sizzle out at a distance)

Tenya: - The younger of identical twins (He likes to shave off a little of his eyebrows to keep the two from getting confused) - Always covered in dust despite being allergic - He prefers to use weapons, or at least fight at a distance. This is because his thunderhand is very unruly and unreliable

Wattpad crack: We're unrealistic and kinda cringe

Ao3 crack: